Life is NOT like a box of chocolates

Well, it isn't!!  The truth is, I love chocolate, and life is nothing like it.  I enjoy eating a box of chocolate, and I savor every bite, unless it is coconut, then I stop eating.  Well, life and friends can be like that as well.  A lesson I have had to learn the hard way recently.

Well a lot has been going on the past several weeks, so I can fill you in.  I already blogged about the pageant, and yes, I need to get some pictures up, but that will have to wait a little longer! LOL!  The past several weeks I have dealt with so much heartache and realization all at the same time.  I have been battling a horrible accusation from my ex-husband.  This could have torn our family apart, but it only made us stronger.  And what have I learned from this?  Some of the people you thought you could trust and you thought were your friends, end up being the ones that hurt you.  You see, I thought my ex's current wife and I were friends, but I come to find out that we aren't.  I have realized that there are people who appear to be strong, but are truly cowards.  Why do people insist on ruining other people's lives?  Are their lives so horrible that they feel the need to ruin someone else's?  You see, the way I handle situations is to sit and talk about them.  Let's get everything out on the table, and let's talk.  Don't go and make false accusations, call police, call other authorities without going to the problem first.  But alas, I guess I am a better person than some.  I am not a coward, no, I will confront you and ask you to sit down like adults and talk about it.  But other people feel the need to deny any wrongdoing, all while secretly plotting to destroy a life, a family, a person they called a friend.  This is why life is not like a box of chocolates.
The funny thing about all of this is, we were innocent the whole time.  This was proved in the end, so God still had the victory!  You see, I am a human being.  I am a person.  I have feelings.  I hurt, I bleed, I cry, I scream, and I love.  When I call you a friend, this means that I will support you, talk to you, work things out when things seem to be going wrong.  I will not undermine you, I will not create problems for your family, I will not do hurtful, painful, devestating things to you.  But I guess there are those people that will.  And do you know what is so bad about all of this?  I cannot seek the revenge that I so long to do.  You see, I am a follower of Christ.  Christ loved his enemies, I mean, he washed the feet of the person who betrayed him and the person who denied him!  He also spoke and said that vengeance is His, so I cannot do anything.  Everything in me screams and fights against this, but I know that being the bigger and better person will win in the end.  But my human nature is tearing up inside just wanting to explode and destroy something. 
But do you know what the even better part of all of this is?  God is in control!  Instead of dividing a family, this brought them closer together.  Instead of turning a mother against her child or vice versa, they have only brought them closer together.  You see, Christ is always in control.  He was, He is, and He forever will be.  One day, people will see that.  One day, I will be able to look those same people in the eye and tell them that I forgive them.  That may take time, but I know it will happen, because God command us to forgive our enemies.  But all in due time my friends, all in due time.
As I finish this up, I am reminded of a song that I heard a lot during all of this mess.
I know I'm not strong enough to be
everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us
I know that God came in and took care of us all.  I know that He has been watching over me my entire life.  I will never give up, I will fight, and I will never back down.  People may take me as a naive, sweet, mellow woman, but that is far from the truth.  I am just a woman who has given EVERYTHING to the Lord, so it is Him that works through me.  You see, I am dead, but alive in Christ!